| Yesterday I went to DBT training. It was awesome. Last night I finally made a decision: I'm going to take a year off. During this year, I want to learn Hindi, work at Fulton State Hospital, work in an emotion and cognition lab on campus (more to come on that), and apply to graduate school for Fall '11. Recession timing is grand, and I think not knowing what I want to do with the REST OF MY LIFE a month and a half before applications are due just isn't healthy.
Yesterday after class, this girl in my capstone asked me if I wanted to go on a hayride with her. The rest of this semester: straight pimpin' ...
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| I guess what I'm really trying to say is, I'm ready to move on. I'm ready for a greater challenge. I'm ready to change my perspective and perceptions of this world in ways I cannot yet fathom but know I will greet with open arms.
And I'm willing to do ... whatever it takes.
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| I suppose I just want to break the status quo. I want a life that I feel gives me greater purpose and sets me apart from the rest. Naive, yes?
People have always disappointed me. I remember looking forward to experiencing "good times" in middle school, and those good times, although fine and well, come and go and I find myself settling for an illusion where I must pretend to be content. Well, I'm not going to lie. I'm not content by any means. And I seek to change that.
Thanks, Tom. Your sarcasm set my soul alight. Back to studying...
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| I feel like I'm coasting, and for the first time in my life, I am incredibly dissatisfied with it.
I got a 101.5/100 on a Human Memory test that I studied my ass off for but didn't expect to get more than a B on. I just talked to my parents and they both have varying responses around the same vibe: You're stuck. I want to be a mighty conqueror or a wicked hedonistic thrill-seeker.
Instead, I am stuck. And I don't know if the path I am choosing will dig me out out my rut.
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| India for a semester, then British Columbia (as opposed to normal Columbia) for graduate school?
Don't see Paranormal Activity. It sucks.
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